He was taken so off guard. I didn’t mean to, it was instinctual. It has been 10 years since I was freed from that awful relationship, so it even surprised me when it happened. I was comfortable in his arms, sipping a glass of wine, and yet it still occurred. All he tried to do was reach for the remote control. The movement was just at the right angle in my periphery to trigger it. He was taken aback. He looked at me differently afterwards, too. Will it ever be ok? Will there come a time where it doesn’t happen? Will I ever get to a point where I…don’t…flinch?